Alpaca Lips Please

[tinhuviel]

Where is the End of Time when you need it? Seriously, this year has been so crap, I'm almost immobilised with amazement that it can get any worse.

On Wednesday, I had a seizure. In the car. IN THE CAR. Not sure how bad it is yet. I talked to the body shop guy today and he apparently believes it's fixable because he asked if I wanted him to fix the wheel. So, hopefully, it'll be okay.

I'm still sore from both the seizure and the impact, but it could be worse I guess. It could also be better, as in the crash could have destroyed every atom of my being.

What's so bad is, I woke up the morning wondering why I was on the couch, and wondering if Aunt Tudi was okay on the bed.

Fuck Fuck FUCK!

I can't freakin' wait until December gets here. For me, the Alpaca Lips is waaaaaay overdue.

Comments

[mizliz.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry your new Smartbaby got dinged when you've been so excited about finally getting it, but honestly, it's replaceable -- you're not. So I'm VERY glad that you weren't hurt.

[paisley-daze.livejournal.com]

Ah shit. Glad you weren't hurt too badly but sad that it happened at all. Your health status must be a burden at times but you're strong and you're resiliant. So sweet of you to think of Tudi right away but sorry for the let-down when you went to check on her. The mind does cruel things. ((hugs)) for you my southern gal .... I believe in you and your strength to carry on as you always have. Peace to you. Draw a circle and be safe inside.

[dandelion-diva.livejournal.com]

Oh hon. I'm so sorry. I'm very glad it wasn't worse. I hope they get your seizures under control soonest and that the car can be easily fixed.

[circumspectly.livejournal.com]

o.O Well Good Grief, girl...WTF? This is the year of teh SUCK, for sure. I hope they can get to the bottom of this, get it fixed, and life starts to look up...because ENOUGH, ALREADY, eh?

<3

OKay, I know we usually don't get personal in this blog (I have another blog for that)

[cinematixyz.livejournal.com]

But I too had a seizure in a car. My first, last, and only that I am aware of.

My ex and I had just been in Florida on a Road trip to see my mum and were driving home to New York. The last thing I remember is we switched drivers *THANK DOG* in the Carolinas and he was driving...and my muscles started feeling tense and twitchie and I had ZERO control over it. I tried to communicate to him that I was moving my muscles like that but there my memory stops.

He told me after that he got off the highway and there was a service station there are I was still seizing. He said he ran in and screamed "CALL 911" then came back to my side of the car where it was starting to slow down.

Again, I remember NONE of this. The next thing -I- recall is somebody sticking a pin deep in my finger and it hurt so bad it like snapped me to or something because I said "OUCH Stop That" and the Paramedic said "it's working, keep going"

Then I see that my ex is forcing me to drink juice and a big crowd is there, including police, ambulance, and fire-trucks and I was embarrassed and asked what happened.

My ex told me later when they got there, I was out of it and shaking and drooling/foaming and someone pricked my finger, then they told the store workers watching to get me OJ and told Rob to get it in me. The pinprick I FELT was actually the third one.

So From feeling my muscles starting to tighten than twitch until the third pinprick checking my blood levels, I recall NOTHING. They let us go (we were far from home) and get checked out once we hit NYC but I didn't and it never happened again. I was stressed, leaving my mother, and had forgotten to eat for a couple days I guess. I was 25 and I will be 33 in 17 days and it never happened again but boy, was it TERRIFYING!!!!

So sorry that happened to you, I had many bruises on me later from having my seizure in a small vehicle.

Zu

Re: OKay, I know we usually don't get personal in this blog (I have another blog for that)

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

Hideous, innit? And they didn't find out what caused it? I hope you never have another, because they suck big donkey balls.

The thing that pisses me off as much as a seizure itself is my reaction when I come to. I cry uncontrollably. The doctor said that's one of many side effects, but I am not one to cry, especially in public, so I'm almost as horrified by that as I am having another bloody wreck.

It makes me want to destroy the entire world.

[cinematixyz.livejournal.com]

Although you should get checked out just in case, don't be afraid that it might happen again all the time now. I spend a year or two afraid to drive or do anything because of something that never came.

And it's ok to cry when you come out of a seizure because you are confused, your mind and body aren't working together the way they ought to....and if you want to cry, that's your right. Noone's keeping score.

It's okay honey. I know how scary it is, but it will be ok.

Z

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

This isn't my first. I've been going to a neurologist since 2008 because of this crap. They can't find anything; then again, we know so little about the brain, it's not really surprising. :/

[evcelt.livejournal.com]

Damn. That sucks.

You are, have been, and will be in my prayers.

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

Thanks dude. :)

[durgablue.livejournal.com]

I knew you had a recent bad seizure, and knew something had happened to your smart car, but I have been largely absent on LJ of late. I am very sorry this happened and hope the cause of the seizures can be addressed quickly.

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

Meh, thanks honey. This has been a seriously crap year and, honestly, I'm starting to find all the bad luck so absurd, all I can do is sit here and laugh.