Sick

[tinhuviel]

I'm sick of being poor and fat and useless and helpless.

I went to the wls surgeon today for the consultation and they require $2500 up front and informed me that my insurance probably wouldn't cover a thing. I'm so tired of it all.

I guess I will just be fat til I die which, to be honest, won't be for very fucking long.

Comments

[ravien.livejournal.com]

Well...if the insurance doesn't cover it, that means you're not fat.

They only cover for the extremely obese. Well that's what they call it. Basically that means the 300+ crowd, but they use the BMI to determine it.

It's all about if it's causing you health problems with breathing and so on. If it's harming you, they pay for it.

That's just what I've read and been told. I could be wrong. I'm over 300 pounds but don't look it. I think I have really heavy bones. If I had insurance I'd probably get the surgery, but then again, it would be something I'd have to discuss with everyone I know and have them input on my decision. Lately it seems that I'm worth more to my friends than I am to myself.

Bleh, don't feel fat. Feel beautiful, because you are, and I love you *hugs*

Stay strong.

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[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

That's not necessarily true. I was told about a woman who died begging her insurance company to pay for the surgery, so it's great feeling knowing one's life is in THEIR hands.

I was just very disappointed by the whole morning and I despise never having any money. All I ever do is WORK and I never have any money.

Life is no fun and I don't feel beautiful or happy or anything else right now. I feel exactly how I've always been made to feel since grade school: a loser and a freak.

[ravien.livejournal.com]

Good thing I like freaks and losers ;)

Please honey, don't hate yourself. No one thinks you're a freak or loser anymore. You're not in grade school anymore. I know of at least three people that love you just the way you are.

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

Well, after years of being treated like a pariah by the majority of people you encounter, it sorta sinks into the psyche, you know?

There there

[ravenlygirl.livejournal.com]

Hey grrl, listen here. I know how it is when one has bad days, but next time think about haveing friends who care about you, and having a man in your life who truly loves YOU and not your status or looks, etc. You'd be amazed at how many model-like women I know who are single and miserable because of it. They're not greand bitches either. It just doesn't make sense for me and I wish I was a lesbian, LOL. Anyway, what I'm saying is that you should always focus on the positive things in your life and not let yourself be overwhelmed by all the negative aspects.