I do not feel

[tinhuviel]

I do not feel the way others apparently do. When there's a death, I don't cry, I don't feel anything. When there's a major surgery in the family coming up, everyone is so concerned and they gather at the hospital to show their support for one another. But I feel peripheral to all of that. I always have. I just don't understand it at all. What's going to happen will happen despite everyone wasting their time in a place filled with all manner of pestilence.

Even the loss of pets now does not affect me in the way it used to. I would grieve deeply for my animal companions, more than any human; however, that's changed somehow too. I often just feel...numb these days. I wonder if it's a by-product of being so closely bound to the character of Cadmus, who is wholly emotionless, or at least mostly so. His lack of...anything...may have been seeping into my psyche without my knowing it. But this has been going on for a while now. And, to be honest, I can't muster up enough concern to worry about what it may mean.

Comments

[gunslingaaahhh.livejournal.com]

hmm.

[zaecus.livejournal.com]

Profound apathy can be a sign of depression.

...or a hundred other things.

[falkenna.livejournal.com]

It's the other way round, love, and I think you know that. At the moment I guess it's protective, but I await with anticipation the time when you can bear to retrieve your soul from the Underworld.