2018 Goals: Bills, Teeth, and Purge

[tinhuviel]

I don't believe in resolutions, because they are self-sabotaging prophecies. Just my opinion. But I do have some goals this year, one very important one, as it affects pretty much every part of my life. So here goes.

1. I'm going to get rid of a lot of the movies I own. After living in a hoarding environment for almost four years, my inclination for minimalism has only grown stronger. The litmus test for what I give up is, if I haven't watched the movie in over a year, I'm not going to miss it, and it's history. I'll be making a list of what I'm purging and offering the films to anyone who may want them. Given my finances, I'll have to ask for the price of mailing the package (I have mailers, so that's not an issue) and, for that, I am sorry, but I'll be happy to rehome these flix to my homies, or strangers who reach out in response. Whatever is left is going to Horizon Records to be sold for whatever they offer me.
    
2. I am restarting my Yoga. Over the past few months, I've neglected this, and I am feeling the effects. My joints are a nightmare, and my pain levels are sometimes out of control. I've also gained some weight, for a couple of reasons: lack of exercise and eating habits, which will be addressed below. I'm adding Surya Namaskar, because it looks doable in my current physical state, and it's mentioned in Shriekback's song, Sticky Jazz. Hey, I'm nothing if not irrationally loyal.
    
3. I have to pay off the ADSAP bill, which exceeds $1000, and has to be resolved by January 2019.  My aim is to have it paid off by October, Goddess-willing.
    
4. I need to get my lost Social Security Card replaced, so I can finally get a South Carolina ID and insure that I'll be able to vote come November, because that shit's important, more so than ever, I'd say!
    
5. I'm going to work on being more trusting and not to over-think things. By nature, I am an analyst. Combine that with too many betrayals of trust in the past, and you have a combination that creates an excellent KGB agent, but not so much a good friend or companion. Since I will never be recruited to the KGB, I need to focus on relationships, or I'm going to end up being more alone than I already am. Included in this goal is to stop focusing on the blatant exclusion by my local family. As that Frozen chick says, I need to let it go.
    
6. Last, but hardly least, I need to get new dentures. The first set I got was a study in Supreme Fuckery, especially considering how much they cost. Despite several "fixes", they were too big and severely unaligned, so much so I have never been able to chew with them.  It has only gotten worse, after I lost more weight and my gums shrank, making them even bigger.  They even prevent me from singing, and I still have trouble speaking! Since 2015, I've been on a soft diet, comprised mainly of soup, cottage cheese, and smoothies. I have only worn the dentures for cosmetic purposes, but I can only wear them for brief periods of time, because they're so painful. If I wear them longer than 12 or so hours, they rip up my gums and cheeks, and then I have to deal with bleeding and sores. It's been a nightmare. When I was in California, depressed and having a lack of access to proper food preparation methods, my weight was not affected by my diet. Yeah, I'd fall out more often than not, from poor nutrition issues, but what I was eating didn't affect my weight. Now that I have a more normal situation when it comes to food, I don't have the the finances to get healthier choices that I could eat, so my limited food choices, combined with reduced activity, I'm gaining weight. The good news, though, is I haven't fallen out but maybe a half dozen times this year! Regardless, my diet is not the healthiest in the world. I now have high cholesterol that the doctor says diet can change, but I can't change my diet until I'm able to expand my options, and I can't expand my options until I'm able to actually chew food.  I'm not sure how I'll be able to gather the funds for the dentures I need, considering the godawful ADSAP bill, but finding a way is of great importance, overshadowing all the other goals on this list.  Wish me luck!

Comments

[gatheringrivers]

A cheap blender might be an option. That was something I used to take advantage of back when I was a semi-wee one and had braces (because trying to chew around those damn tiny rubber bands more often than not ended up with me EATING the rubber bands, or them getting flung into someone's face....)


Save your meat bones (if you get any) and make meat stock. :) The gelatin will help your joints too.

[tinhuviel]

I have a blender, it's just a struggle buying the right things to put in it, and I'm a vegetarian, so no meat stock for me.

[gatheringrivers]

Uhhhhhhh. *blinkblink* Crap, I forgot you didn't eat much meat before. That makes things tough. :(

[ladyana]

There is an app called decluttr and they will take your old movies DVD's and CD's. I haven't used them personally, but it's a solution to the movies and CDs you may not get offers for otherwise. I know they can sometimes lowball on prices, but shipping is included.

[tinhuviel]

Hey thanks!

[circumspectly]

Have you looked into these? http://www.freedentalcare.us/st/north_carolina

I don't know anything about it, but given your financials, it seems like you should be able to qualify for assistance with getting new dentures.

[tinhuviel]

Unfortunately, I'm not in North Carolina. South Carolina couldn't give less of a single fuck about dental services for anyone without money.