Certifiable

[tinhuviel]

OK, I saw the therapist today. She asked me all sorts of questions and I answered as honestly as I could, and she didn't even hint at calling the Men in White Coats. Yay me! Maybe I'm not as mad as I think I am, though I've heard that if you worry about being crazy, chances are you're not. It's the crazies that have no problem with insanity I guess.

I spent an hour being grilled about my family, my weight issues, anger issues, etcetera and even more etcetera. The only problem I had was with my own scant knowledge of psychology. I would know the reason behind some of the questions she asked me and would then worry over how to properly answer it in order to satisfy her motives. The less a person who's having to talk to a therapist knows about psychology, the better, methinks.

One of the things she asked me was "Do you have any unreasonable or unfounded fears?" Before I thought, I answered, "I have a few since I saw The Ring." Thankfully she laughed. .....but really I wasn't joking. Sadako begone!

Next Monday I go back for the last portion of the psyche evaluation, then the shrink will send "The Verdict" to my docs. This could make or break me.

Let the irrational worrying commence!

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[agent-q.livejournal.com]

The Ring would give anyone irrational fears. I saw it yesterday, and I fear I will never look at a video tape in the same way again!

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

I'm glad I'm not alone in that.

The debate still rages in my head as to which one was scarier: "Ring" or "Ringu". I think that "Ringu" was a bit more visually horrifying because Sadako just comes across creepier and also has that freaky eyeball thing going on whereas Samara shows her whole face. Then again, Samara's expressing her desire to hurt people didn't do much for my rising panic in my throat.

OK, I'm spooked now.

[agent-q.livejournal.com]

I think "Ring" scared me more. The video itself seemed more... other worldly.

Perhaps the fact that I saw "Ring" first spoiled me, because I knew what was going to happen once I saw "Ringu".

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

Oh, the video was definitely creepier in "Ring". And the whole horse theme just added to the movie's eeriness.

The final bits of both films just disturbed me beyond all comprehension though. And don't even get me started on this photo:

http://ringworld.somrux.com/images/sadako-obake-paper.jpg

eeeeeee!

Mind if I add you as a friend? Safety in numbes and all that...

[agent-q.livejournal.com]

Of course I don't mind! I'll add you too.

It's always good to know people who have good taste in films!

[irenes.livejournal.com]

Well, it sounds like it went well! Good luck on the next installment.

Doesn't look good for me though. I'm such a total amateur psychologist. I know I'm going to be completely stymied by the exam. You ever heard of "psychology student's disease"? I've got an awful case of it :P

I actually am a bit worried because I think I do have some of the issues that they are out to detect, but not necessarily because of my fatness. I have some pretty severe dissociative issues (one of the things that they are looking out for). Also, they want to know that you are gonna have the needed "support" from family and/or friends and I don't know if I'll be able to make a convincing case of that. But I figure the more that I worry and stress over it now, the worse it'll be so I'm trying to just let it go for now.

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

I think the main thing is to let them know that you're aware of what you're facing and are preparing for it now. At least that way, they will feel that if you're sane and thoughtful enough to be doing that, you're obviously right-minded enough to handle the changes and challenges brought about by the surgery.

Please keep me posted, ok?

[zitronenhai.livejournal.com]

Well, I have to say, when they offered me pills and I took them, I felt better. I don't consider it a long-term solution, but it really helps to get over the hump. Sometimes the hump is a big one. Sometimes one must eat one's pills for many months, a couple of years or indefinately. I balk at the idea of meds, but let me tell you this - if you, like most Americans today, turn up with chronic low-grade depression and anxiety, let me recommend Lexapro. Side effects are minimal... really, if there are any, I haven't figured out what they are... and if you decide to go off of them at some point, the withdrawals are also minimal. Celexa withdrawals were total hell!

I mean, I have no idea what they're going to tell you to do, but I wanted to offer my experience for your information.

Be well and keep us posted!

Oh, and I know no sane persons, just so you know. :D

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

What American isn't depressed these days, I ask you, with the exception of Dubya and his corporate cronies?

Bleh..

The doc has me on Wellbutrin so, not only am I not dragging my face along the ground now, I will also never start smoking. ha!

The eval is a requirement of the insurance company before approval for the bypass surgery. If I'm deemed sane, I'll get it. If not, I'll get a small padded room in Columbia. Please write me if the latter occurs. ;)

[zitronenhai.livejournal.com]

Certainly!

I do have a feeling you will be deemed sane... sane enough, anyway. :)

SPACE MADNESS!!!

Oh, my beloved ice cream bar...

[godblossom.livejournal.com]

the process moves along...nice to hear your (mostly) sane :)

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