Tonight

[tinhuviel]

For the first time in a little over two weeks I'm going to see Llew.

I'm neither dreading nor looking forward to it. I basically feel nothing. I'll see how it goes tonight but, honestly, I'm afraid the damage is truly done. I promised him one more chance, but I can't help but think I'll have to act my way through it until he screws up again.

I'd rather be angry than feel nothing toward him. Usually when the apathy hits me, it's the end for me in whatever arena.

Comments

[brujah.livejournal.com]

I wish I could offer you some sort of witty commentary designed to make you both feel better and smile, but I can't. Hurt is hurt. Apathy aside you were distraught and rightfully so.

I worry about you. You have a good soul and deserve every happiness life has to offer.

One of these days we'll get together and get shit-faced on a thimble-full of whatever poison we decide on and share some protein dense healthy bariatric foodstuffs and lament that we're the only real people (we encompasses those who share our generalized hatred of the run of the mill stupid human parasite) on the entire planet.

It could happen.

Until then, just know that there are people out here who care when you're not feeling well, spiritually, or otherwise.

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

That has to be the sweetest thing someone has written to me in a very long time. Thank you so much!

[aki-dreaming.livejournal.com]

That's a bad place, Tin.

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but it's always proven to be necessary in past instances, so we'll see.

[aki-dreaming.livejournal.com]

I COMPLETELY understand this. Necessary bad places. I memorize them, so I can recognize them next time.

[blueinatl.livejournal.com]

I am familiar with the "if there is anger at least there is an emotion, and when apathetic it is over" syndrome. All to well actually.

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

Word

[ealdthryth.livejournal.com]

Sorry things have taken this turn. Ignatius waves a sympathetic paw.

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

Now THAT makes me smile.
::hugs Ignatius from afar::

[aditi-.livejournal.com]

I have no words of wisdom to offer... only a hug.

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

I can always do for a hug from you.

[lithiumlady.livejournal.com]

I know I'm only 19 (almost 20), but from my experiences acting is no way to live. Promise or not once it's over it's over and when you limit yourself within a context you might miss something the universe is trying to fling at you.

I wish you the best and I know you're gonna get it. Not killing the Feudal Mistress has had to of racked up some good karma somewhere.

[tinhuviel.livejournal.com]

You're right of course. I'm just sitting it out and waiting for a *sign*. We'll see what happens.

[lithiumlady.livejournal.com]

Signs are usually worth waiting for. Just don't keep a particular one in mind.